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Friday, July 28, 2006

A Journey to Ayyappa
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[The shock wave sent by Shabarimala Deva preshnam has not yet subdued. Actually it is only starting to reveal the many facets of the ugly, money hungry and lustful caucus surrounding the Ayyppa snnidhanam.
After the devaprshanam ….

Preiya Thanthri and Chinna Thanthri said, “ Deva Preshnam wasn’t good. ……. And Ayypaa will reveal the truth”.

Borad members Said, “Deva Preshnam was great, will go ahead with the findings…..and Ayyappa will reveal the truth”.

Astrologer who did DevaPrshnam Said, “Everything was perfect, except that I am not a brhamin …. And Ayypaa will reveal the truth”.

A group of astrologers (who did not get the chance to do the devaprshnam) said, “ Devaprshnam was a farce …………… And Ayypaa will reveal the truth”.

Actress said.” I did this that bla bla bla ……… And Ayypaa will reveal the truth”.

After the sex scandal …..

china Thanthri said, “ I went there for the pooja ( Actually he does this sort of poojas in a regular basis ) …………… And he dared to add Ayypaa will reveal the truth”.

Every body else said, ….Ayypaa will reveal the truth…..]



This is off-season for shabarimala, and so the news did not reach sannidhanam fast enough.

Lord Ayyppa untouched and unscathed by any of these, was in a deep meditation. He knew everything, but did not open his eyes, his meditation continued. Shanthi… Shanthi…

Unlike in shabarimala, news reached pumba on time, where Vavar , was deeply agitated by all these nonsense in the name of his only soul mate- his lord. At one point he even pulled up his sword, but later calmed down by the blissful presence of his lord with in him. And he decided to climb the hill to see his lord.

At Sannidhanam; Ayyappa was in his meditation. Vavar appeared with folded hands and said “ Sharanam Ayyappa”.

Ayyappa slowly and gracefully opened his eyes, happy to see his great friend , got up and embraced him, with affection.

Lord Ayyappa, “Dear friend, what made you come here and wake me up from my meditation?”

Vavar (his eyes were red with anger), “ Didn’t you hear about all those nonsense? You must have. You know everything.”

Lord Ayyappa ( Smiling) ,” what do you want me to do. Investigate”?

Vavar; “why not. Let’s investigate. There are women involved, since you are a brahmachari, I will take care of that part.”

Lord Ayyappa; “Okay. We do investigate. Shabari will accompany you to investigate the part where women are involved”

Vavar : “ Why shabari the illiterate, low cast? “

Lord Ayyappa; “She may be illiterate and low cast. But she knew me. When she knows me, she can know anything. And I myself will investigate the others.”

Vavar and Shabari walked off.

Lord Ayyppa was trying to enter the dream of Chinna Thanthri to find the truth. But he could not. Thanthri’s dream was full, mostly with strange women, Ayyappa hesitated to enter. Losing patience, Ayyappa finally sought the help of Carl Jung , who by now was elevated as the lord of dreams. Carl Jung rushed in and cleared thanthri’s dream for Ayyappa to enter.

Ayyappa slowly entering into Thanthri’s dream.

Thanthri; “ Who are you. Did I see you somewhere? Look familiar…. Can’t remember .. cannot remember”

Ayyappa: “what do you remember mostly then?”

Thanthri : “ Lot of things.. Its life you know.. Got to do a lot of things.. need money..money…money”
( a bunch of currency notes also entered into the dream space)

Ayyappa:” Where is this money from?”

Thanthri :” It always follows me wherever I go. I have a life long bond with money. You just have to born into certain families. That’s all. Money follows. Devotees give money. What does the lord need? He does not need money, just some ghee for abhishekam. But devotees , you know .. they come like marching ants.. Yes like ants.. they bring money ..a lot. They threw the money to my feet. I told you, money comes to me, and it is natural. ”

Ayyappa:” What you do with that money?”

Thanthri :”Its life , I told you. You know long poojas and those darshanam to devotees, make me tired. We need enjoyment too. So I spend money for that. I spend money for things I want, like pretty women.. (continuing with excitement) You want to know the other day……

Ayyappa withdrew himself from thanthri’s deram.

Now he is into the dream of a Devasowm board member.


Ayyappa:” How are the things?

Member : “ Fine thanks ..Busy .. to start the projects..”

Ayyappan : “why projects?”

Member : “ We need to do a lot of projects.. Rope way.. Buildings ..Construction.. Construction is the key. You know a member have only 3 years. We need to do maximum during the time. Money come from the projects.. money.. projects.. money.. projects..”

Ayyappa just turning away ..


Memebr; “Bye the way you look familiar. But Can’t quite remember.?”

Ayyappa disappeared from his dream to enter the dream of the Astrologer who did devaprshnam.

Ayyappa : “ Is all the stars doing okay?”

Astrologer:” Stars are fine. But it is the people who make all the issues for me”

Ayyappa “You thing you are innocent?”

Astrologer:” Off course, I am! Not only innocent but very efficient one too. See, do you blame a big corporate if they are loyal to their client and give what they want. NO..See .. here the board hired me, I gave them what they want. They are very happy with that. Aren’t they? Then what is the problem. I did justice for my client.. If the thanthri or someone else want something , let them hire me… see I am open“

Ayyappa: “ What about the stars. Don’t they suppose to tell the truth?”

Astrologer: ” Chey.. Chey.. Don’t make a fool out of yourself sir. Stars always said one thing .. only one thing.. that is
…..Deepa sthambum mhashcharyam .. Namukkum kittanam MONEY… that is it...”

It was almost morning, Ayyappa decided to enter the dream of a poor guruswamy who visits the sannidhanam every year and brings only a coconut filled with ghee.

There was a fog of confusion and helplessness filled in his dream space. Ayyappa entered through the fog, slowly.
On the glimpse of the delightful sight, the guruswamy jumped up from his bed with folded hands, not opening his eyes , out of fear that he might loose the vision of his lord
Guruswamy shouted in top of his voice “ Swamiyaee sharanamyyappa”

Ayyappan: (touching his forehead) “How you been?”

Guruswamy: ‘Never been better than this one moment, my lord. I have only one to ask , please don’t go away, please stay with me.. please lord..”

Ayyaappa.” I will stay with you. All the time.. With in you.. Look inward.. Well you already knows that.. I will always be with you my dear..”

Ayyappa disappeared into the fog..

Ayyappa back into sannidhanam. Going through the reports from Shabari and Vavar. He stood still. Closed his eyes for a moment,
Vavar could see a clear drop of ghee rolling down Ayyappa’s cheek, or was it a drop of tear. He turned his face away. Vavar have never seen his lord’s eyes wet. He was always the noble, unbeatable, victorious warrior.. Villaly Veeran.. But now they defeated him.. they all joined together… no not defeat … but the pain.. See my lord.. After all he too is a human avatar..

When vavar turned to look Ayyappa again, he found him with his bow and fine arrow. Ayyappa set the bow straight.. Positioned the arrow, then he went into a deep contemplation before sending the arrow facing the dark forest.

His arrow passed through the thick forest, went beyond mountains and rivers and finds a pristine place, in the middle of the virgin forest. A small valley surrounded by mountains.

“Here, this is my place”, Ayyappa said.

Away away away away from the lustful caucus, into the thick forest.
Ayyapaa sits down in his favorite koormasan.
A huge leopard started circling him as if to protect the sanctity of the place.
Ayyappa closing his eyes into a deep meditation…

He sits there deep deep deeep deep in the forest, deep in the mind of a seeker, hidden away by the thick forest…deep inside…you don’t even know that he is there.

Now to see him, the seeker has to cross the forest, the thick forests of his own mind.
Climb steep mountains of hurdles that stand in front of him, he has to endure the pain of facing his own fear to climb high. But he must.

Once he reaches there, the bhakta has to rise to the level of Ayyappa.

Yes you have to rise to his level.
High up
18 steps high.

If you can do that
And only if you can do that
You will get the dharshan of the lord.

Then the lord will call you by his own name “AYYAPPA”

He will then embrace the Bhaktha
And you will hear the secret, from his holy tongue, in his blissful voice.

The secret of ‘Tat Tvam Asi ‘.

Asokakumar Nair.

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